2017

Lyrics

There

 

There I drown in a sea of experience,

Knowing.

Now is the time to use the answers.

My way is no way.

Someone wise said we can have what we desire,

Our way.

Always going for something bigger

A ways away.

 

Open eyes see the terrain for what it is.

Accept it.

I take the path that lies there offered,

Present.

Can you see our lights from the other side,

Dancing?

Brave enough to pull the trigger.

 

That’s how I fare on my own.

There’s where I end on my own.

 

And I veer like a runaway,

Racing, running blind,

End unknown,

There on my own.

 

Fending off the fear with fear’s best friend,

Waiting.

I send myself all the wrong signals.

Mind atrophies.

Every little wrong sends me on my way

Back there.

Allow me one more bad decision.

Last one ever.

 

I give myself permission before the end,

Offering.

I take some in and dole it back out,

Building.

Every single step is a choice I make,

But not more.

Allow yourself to live out there.

 

 

Tell Us

 

Tell of your ride, of your flight.

Its only right.

Tell from inside, of your fight.

Its always right.

 

Tell us a new story;

We’ll always, always care.

Shout it from the center.

You’ll always bring us there.

 

Turn your idea into form, into light.

Come generate from within into life.

 

All the while we’ll be around always,

Always there.

Turn around and look for us always.

We’ll be there.

 

Don’t follow here.

Don’t copy here.

Don’t count on here.

Breed it from within.

 

Here we come. We’re coming to create.

Meet us there.

You’re the one we wanted

For your way, never theirs.

 

Come, bring your shine.

Take your time,

How you like.

Give us what’s yours.

Shine your light and

Show us why.

 

Tell the truth about it.

We’re always, always fair.

Take us just a little bit closer.

Bring us there.

 

Tell us a new story;

We’ll always, always care.

 

 

Come, Give Me Your Love

 

Found a new formula

To afford it a

Spotless new existence

If only for one big crucial flaw

An all-important part

It won’t rise without.

 

Come, give it your love.

Let me give it some love

And all the things,

Everything that you and I have been

Always dreaming of.

 

Come give it your love,

Or just give it enough

Because it’s the thing,

Everything.

The final piece to get

This damn thing to run.

 

This method needs your love.

This project calls for your love.

It all depends on your love,

So for now,

I can’t get the damn thing to budge.

And when they ask me what the

Secret ingredient was.

Might they believe me when I say

It really just needed some love.

 

And if it falls down

To the far, hard ground

It won’t stay there too long,

For we both know

We built it from zero

With this formula and two

One-track minds.

 

Its All Gone

 

All that I’ve been working on

To build my world is gone,

All the hope I had for the

One day I would win is gone.

 

I based my answers, bet my spirit

On what I would create.

Ignored the loving ones, and now

Here I lie to face my fate. 

 

All I ever wanted was the happy life.

Now, its gone.

Every little thing I did to feel alright

Is gone.

 

And as the sun sets on me,

It finds me praying for a friend.

They’re all gone.

Its all gone.

 

Every single thing I have been fighting for

Is gone.

All my dreams done, dematerialized.

They’re all gone.

 

I thought I had it all worked out.

I swear I had a plan.

I’d be the biggest first,

And then I’d be a good man.

 

Oh, will the angels show me any kindness

Where I’m going?

Or should I prepare to beg for mercy

Where I’m going?

 

Its only in the end

I’m kneeling and begging for a friend.

They’re all gone.

It’s all gone.

 

And as the sun sets on me,

It finds me praying for a friend.

They’re all gone.

Its all gone.

Towards Dawn

 

How many times must I think this over?

How many days come and gone?

How many ways must I work it out

Before I move towards the dawn?

 

Not many methods I know of

To let the great vices go.

So many kinks always working on out.

I know how it goes.

 

So many times I’ve turned this page over

To meet the same set of words.

So many tears have I worked on out.

Another mourning unheard.

 

How many fires have I vanquished

Only to wake up a ghost?

Don’t look back.

Just find a way out from all this dark.

Don’t stop to ask right or wrong.

 

Don’t look back.

No one will be waiting.

No good is down that road.

 

Don’t look back.

No one will be chasing

You know that old road is closed.

 

How many plans must I draft up

Before we’re ready to launch?

Don’t look back.

We’re operational now. Let’s go.

Don’t waste another day lost.

You know that road is closed.

 

How many ways must I play this over

Before I move towards the dawn?

 

​​Past 2:00

 

Its past 2 o’clock right now

And now I don’t know which way to go.

And no, I don’t know which way they went.

And now there’s no way for me to know.

 

If I died right now

Well now I don’t know which way I’d go.

Up above or down below.

And now there’s only one way to know.

 

I stroll around and see

All the effort there is to see

It came from sweat, tears and tyranny,

But I don’t blame a single soul.

 

If it was left to me would I

Build it up or tear it down?

I bet I’d burn something to the ground

But now I don’t think I have the strength or motive, no.

 

I stand alone at the corner where they meet

Down there where North and South Streets,

The angel and the devil,

They come together.

 

And every dream I ever dreamed I would reach

Comes down to this and every

Small, damned decision and

Minute endeavor ever.

 

I feel alright right now

But now I know that’s about to turn,

So I will hunt where the trouble lurks,

Or will today be the day I finally learn?

 

For if I fall right now

Well, now, I don’t know if I will get up.

I’ve got a long way to turn my luck,

And it’s a tall, steep and treacherous road.

 

I just want to wait until the next song to dance,

But each song passes by,

Chances are, by design.

 

I plan to keep planning on the next move to make,

All the while losing what it takes

To make the moves that’ll make me go,

And I don’t know which way to go.

 

 

Heaven

 

Heaven,

You made me get to God

Before you opened your heart,

And for this, I’m yours.

 

Heaven,

You made me be my ideal

Before you went and made me feel

Like I’m walking on air.

 

Oh, Heaven,

You gave me a good reason

To stop acting like a heathen

And be my better self

And quit all of this nonsense.

 

Heaven,

You made me kick the old me

Before you came and let me be

In your loving arms.

 

And if you find

That I’m really not your type,

Please turn a blind eye

Because I aint that bad

And it took me all I had

To land me on cloud nine.

 

Oh, Heaven,

What’s the point of even

Trying to think of a reason

To ever shut your doors?

By the way, I had a key made.

 

Heaven,

I’d never do you wrong.

You know I’ve come so far along.

You saw me before.

 

Oh, Heaven,

I hope I make you feel

Half as great as you make me feel.

I’m forever yours, and, for this, I’m yours.

 

 

Put that Weight on Me

 

Yeah, it feels we can’t be far now,

But until the pardon comes down,

Don’t tell a soul.

We’ll be found, and

They’ll drag us through town.

 

If you feel like turning back now,

Turn around and feel my heart pound.

Its cold, and it shows,

But its strong.

It can handle the blows.

 

Though we both done played our part,

Put the blame on me.

If it gets too hard to handle,

Put the weight on me.

 

And if you find your will lost,

Find your will in me.

And if I change my story,

Kindly remind me.

If you fall,

Break your fall on me.

 

What we did, we can’t undo now.

On a spree and on the lam now.

We ghost as we go,

While we hope they don’t track us down.

 

With the heat they’re turning up now,

We’ll be caught. Deny it all now.

Tell them it was me.

I’ll go smiling knowing that you went free.

 

Though we both done played our part,

Put the blame on me.

Goodbye, Apple

 

And with a smile, I give you away.

Don’t know if I’ve done enough to say,

“Here was a home where I gave my all,

So if we failed, no one’s to blame.”

 

Tore down your walls and found my way.

You tore me down and built walls up in my place.

 

I still recall the spark you inspired

From in your heart and more from afar.

Drawn to your once dark, desperate charm,

Now that its gone, you fold up your arms.

 

And we both know you’re too big to fail

Except to those whose ships have yet to set sail.

 

I choose to remember the awe and the wonder.

I choose to reflect on the spell I was under.

And to us dreamers you were like a mother.

I dream that you keep the door open for others.

 

There was a time I thought you the one,

We felt rich and young,

And when it worked, the high we were on.

It was our playground.

 

As the illusion comes to an end,

As the curtain falls,

Those who would destroy you take our place,

Who bring nothing.

 

We, who would lift you, you push away.

Its not too late.

If we were stronger maybe we’d stay,

Always.

 

Rear view mirror,

Steal one last gaze.

Don’t let your brightest lights

Fade away.

 

I choose to remember the awe and the wonder.

 

 

Hard to Believe

 

I stuck my neck out for you once again.

Now the bulls are staring at me down

While I defend you,

And I explain your side.

And as I tell your story,

I realize its never the same twice.

 

I find you awfully hard to believe.

You find it awfully hard to explain.

 

Your credibility is gone,

With all your nonsense and goings on.

 

I’m trying awfully hard to believe.

 

You stand before me all red faced

Your is hanging out.

Maybe I could believe you

If everything you said wasn’t

So slurred and loud.

Your bloodshot eyes tell a tale

Truer than any that could

Come from your mouth.

 

I’m trying awfully hard to believe.

 

You’re not going to make it real far.

If I keep finding you how you are.

I find you awfully hard to believe.

You find it awfully hard to explain.

 

You told me you’ve been there.

You told me you knew which way to go.

You lead us into the dark and now

Look at us stranded, barren and all alone.

They must have changed all the roads.

That’s why we’re never getting there, nor back home.

 

I’m trying awfully hard to believe.

 

Your reputation is shot

Always trying to be someone you’re not.

I find you awfully hard to believe.

You find it awfully hard to explain.

Another Day at the Horse Track

 

Another day at the horse track

Another phantom hope to arise

Another vision of a paradise

Another castle in the sky

Another tale to tell

 

And it won’t change me when I win it all.

Yeah, you can keep the 50 cents.

They say it gets real lonely at the top.

They’ll never say it about me.

I put it all in writing.

 

I’m loving this stroll through the rain.

I’ve got no umbrella you see,

And why would I hide?

I’m outside for you to see.

 

Another timid talent lying low

For someone to find and reveal.

Two of a kind on the same ship,

Too petrified to notice bliss,

Too terrified if they did.

 

I’m loving the crash of the waves

Capsizing our ship in the sea,

And why would I mind?

It’s a ride in a way.

 

I’m wanting to fill the void that

Nicotene/Caffeine/Ice cream never could,

Like lovers whose dreams washed away,

And although it would seem that I wish this wasn’t true,

I still want a receipt;

An exchange would never do.

 

Another prize fight will be televised

For your whole family’s eyes to see.

Another phone in at the weigh-in…

I should have known you’d duck me.

I’d never do that to you.

 

I’m loving this stroll through the rain.

I’ve got no umbrella you see,

And why would I hide?

I’m outside for you to see.

 

Wish You Could See Things My Way

 

I don’t know what you think of me.

All I know is what I believe

When I see your face

And I feel your sunny embrace.

 

Look away, and go far from me.

I don’t want you counting on me.

Though I love your face,

I don’t want to see it in pain.

 

Don’t you worry, not about me.

I can take it if you hurt me,

Except if not to try

And to offer no reason why.

 

Wish you could see things my way.

Wish you would see things my way.

 

Please don’t put all your hope in me.

I’m just not the one for you, see,

I need something to chase,

Someone false and far, far away.

 

I could play the games by the book,

But I want to believe you could

Maybe not be that way.

Maybe we could take leaps of faith.

 

Wish you could see things my way.

Wish you would see things my way.

 

Let’s pretend we do what you’re saying,

And you let me down in some way

That I cannot forgive?

Is that something you could live with?

 

If I choose you, and I want to,

You would know a connection to

A whole other plane,

Like a sense has been hidden away.

 

Wish you could see things my way.

 

 

Heard This All Before

 

As you blink those once convincing eyes,

Your whole face recalls a romance of lies.

Still we wait for this train to arrive

All the while you know they’ve shut down this line.

 

You told me you’d sacrifice.

This tells me you think I’m blind,

But I don’t mind.

 

You told me this all before.

I’ve heard this all before.

You throw your flirts and words around and

Wait for me to fall.

 

You told me this all before.

I’ve heard this song before,

And I can bet you thought I’d forget

What went down before.

 

As you say you’ll come on riding back,

You play around and whip on the back you’re on.

And if called out by some miracle,

You’ll just shed some tears from a winking eye.

 

You told me you’ve evolved.

You told me that you’ve grown and seen the light.

You told me I was right.

You showed me that I’m bound, alright.

 

You told me this all before.

We’ve been through this before.

We make pact, you turn your back

And skip on out the door.

 

You told me this all before.

We’ve done this dance before.

And pay no mind to what you leave

Behind here on the floor.

 

You showed me you’re refined.

You told me that you’ll find it for me

If I try and trust you once more.

And you say you’ll show me the way back.

All the pain was just the opening act.

Say you’ll fly me to some promised land.

Sky is fine, offer your welcoming hand.

 

You told me this all before.

I’ve heard this all before.

You throw your flirts and words around and wait

For me to fall.

 

You told me this all before.

I’ve heard this song before,

And I can bet you thought I’d forget

What went down before.

 

This doesn’t mean that I won’t come back.

 

 

I’ve Got It Made

 

Taking it for granted is the sure way to hell…

 

I’ve got it made.

I carved my place out in the shade,

And I’ve got a girl who loves me how I was made,

And I get paid for doing my thing.

I’ve got it made.

 

Ain’t it a shame?

She gone and vanished without a trace,

And I think about her more than I should say.

How it got cold out here in the shade.

Ain’t it a shame?

 

Isn’t it great?

I took a train to outerspace,

And the life out here it

Doesn’t play no games.

The view is ace.

The heavy don’t weigh.

Isn’t it great?

 

I’ve got it made.

So what if things don’t go my way?

Because I’ve got a God who will

Listen when I pray,

And I have faith that someday

I just may.

I’ve got it made.

 

I’ve got my brain,

This sweet lookin’ face.

I’ve got all 20 digits displayed.

I got hits like Mays,

A smile like Dennis Quaid’s.

I’ve got it made.

 

Feel Like Dying

 

The party has started,

And I’m on top of the world.

Hugging the moon,

My feet don’t reach the floor.

And if I die, and

Should tomorrow it rain.

I got the balance right,

And I’m on top of the world.

 

Hopping from high to high so I don’t come down.

Sniffing it all out like I was some kind of hound.

 

Now I feel like dying.

When the party’s over,

And there’s no more rising,

I feel dying.

 

My prayer was answered,

And I’m on top of the world.

Now a believer,

I want to believe some more.

And if I fall,

And should I collapse chasing,

Right here and right now

I’m on top of the world.

 

When it hits, I resist the natural flow.

I don’t allow, rather I try to harness a ghost.

 

Trying to soak it all up, losing half of the lesson,

Skipping stairs by the flight, I miss this side of heaven.

 

And I feel dying.

 

 

What For?

 

One more fight would have its say

In the telling of our tale for good and all.

Too bad tears could never save us

We watered us with saline until we dried.

 

One last time we tried to tango

To this old melody.

One last line we’d try to make up

That we’d both tell

Trying to save us.

 

What for?

 

Once I died, I was a baby.

I started up my training for this new ride.

I grabbed everything of value

To shepherd me on my way to paradise.

 

Then they came along to teach me,

And I kindly took a knee.

I learned it always ends the same way

While they all said. “try to be patient.”

 

What for?

 

 

The Game of the Depraved

 

Come and play the game

Where our fortunes have been made

And the players put all their faith in a

System set up for the whales.

 

Come and play the game

Where your voices are deemed insane.

While our words and actions, our moves and stances

Are never quite the same.

 

And now won’t we be so clever

When we chase our tails and call it an effort?

When we play the game for the depraved…

 

Come and play the game

Where our captains are on the take

And our rules and standards and code of ethics

Are measured in one’s skill to pay.

 

Come and play the game

Where our inane façade reigns

And all of we hypocrites and sellout dipshits

Will bathe in dry champagne.

 

And now won’t it be too funny

When we kill the bees and drink up their honey?

When we play the game for the depraved…

 

Going to play the game

Where at least I know it pays to cave.

Going to play the game of the depraved.

 

Train of Change

 

I know my train is coming.

It’s a little late,

But its just a delay.

I’ve got my fare.

 

I’m going to get back on track

And turn the page.

I’m going to change.

I’ll catch my train.

I’m going to change.

 

For several years, been held back.

In a world of pain,

A choice has been made.

I’m going to care.

 

I’m going to start heading for what I’ve set.

With a head of steam,

A plan has been made.

I’ll catch my train.

I’m going to change.

 

I know my train is coming.

In a world of pain,

I’m going to change.

I’ll catch my train.

I’m going to change.

 

 

Wake Up, Wake Up, Wake Up

 

Hello Mr. Lucky.

Isn’t it great to be?

But why are we?

Here you go recklessly

Down a strange path

Feigning you’ve got it all,

 

But things rarely go your way.

Why do you think its safe to say

For too long you’ve been sporting the wrong hat.

I know you’re not like that.

 

Wake up, wake up, wake up.

You’ve got a ways to go, but we’re rooting for you.

Wake up, wake up, wake up.

Your way is no way to go, and we know you know it.

 

See it in every eye.

Its there for you to find.

Time is no more on your side than your history.

Stop. Take a moment. Catch your breath,

And shout, “Its over!”

 

Wake up, wake up, wake up.

Go on and help yourself. We can’t do it for you.

Wake up, wake up, wake up.

No more can you be taught. Its all in your hands now.

 

Aint it enough to say,

“Be and be on your way?”

You should know we’re all different beads on the same string.

Let’s lift one another.

 

Ignoring the bad taste,

Consequently your ways,

Aint it about time you stopped judging personalities

By their faces.

Face it.

 

Wake up, wake up, wake up.

You’ve got a lot to give, and we’re waiting for it.

Wake up, wake up, wake up.

That way is no way to live, and we know it.

 

Though long you might have failed,

Never to be unveiled,

Peel back these self imposed curtains if only to

Open your eyes to find that

The charade is over.

 

Lonely Little Sanctuary

 

There were times in the olden days when we all met as friends,

When we would take the time to make plans,

But now I, as this bout of mine to put bad choices to rest,

Think I may choose to sit this one out this eve.

 

Then it strikes. The night’s already come.

“Tick tock” as the time goes by,

And now I’m inclined to join the city

In blind debauchery and depravity.

 

If I go, the chances are many

To run into what in my right mind I’m running from.

If I stay, I might miss something

But I’ll decide

 

That I’ll stay inside

And hide from all the creeps

In my lonely little sanctuary.

 

And miss out on life

And all there is to see

In my lonely little sanctuary.

 

Then it hits like a hook to the head.

The urge bites, my might starts fading,

And I despise this fight over wrong and right.

My will is strong, but the night is more ready.

 

If I go, I know what’s coming,

Straight into the pain (its funny, I know),

But next time I’ll bet you money

That I’ll decide.

 

That I’ll stay inside

And hide from all the creeps

In my lonely little sanctuary.

 

And miss out on life

And all there is to see

In my lonely little sanctuary.